It's done...

I scheduled my anatomy ultrasound appointment!  I'm feeling very anxious and nervous now.  I'm guessing I probably won't be going to track that day since I will be really sad knowing that I'll never have a daughter.  I know some people can't even have one kid, so I should be happy that I at least can have kids, but to each his own.  Everyone has their own problems whether they are big or small, they are what they are to them.  And not having a daughter is a VERY big problem to me.  On the bright side, I will still get to reign as Evil Queen in the house.  Haha.

Boys are on Spring Break this week.  We have some fun plans lined up later in the week and the weather isn't too awful, so today I'm going to take them to a park to play outside with their cousin.  I got to run 2 miles this morning.  That was one of the roughest runs yet.  And it actually started out really well (which is not normal) but once I got into the development that I run in, the stroller would NOT cooperate.  It kept wanting to go left and with an extra 80 pounds in there, that was a bitch to deal with.  The tires weren't flat so I have no clue what the deal was.  Other than that and me trying to breathe for life I was good.  And I ran the whole thing in 20 minutes.  Not a good time, but I did it, so I'm proud of myself.

I can't believe that I'm 15 weeks today!  Definitely look pregnant too!  I think I felt the baby move a few times yesterday but it might have just been gas.  I need to try to remember to take a bump shot this week.  As for now, I'm going to go take out some playdough and clean the house while the nuggets destroy it some more.

12.4 weeks

Ok, I'm in my 2nd trimester!  And now it feels like this is going to take forever!  We got to see the baby on Tuesday.  Everything looks great, the blood work was really good as well.  It was (as always) SO cool to see the baby at the ultrasound!  I wish they let you take videos of it, because it's so cool to see the baby moving around.  The tech said this baby is an angel.  It was so cooperative and super chill.  When she would put the thing by it at a certain angle, it would arch its back.  I wish I could just lie there for hours and watch. This photo is kinda crappy, but it had the cutest profile- wish she could have taken a picture of that!

I wanna say that I'm starting to feel a little better, but I'm not.  I have no energy and with it being March 10th and 30º with snow on the ground- it's really hard to be in good spirits.  My back is killing me but it's from working out. And my thighs are getting huge!   But seriously, I just don't want to do anything- but I also don't want to do nothing.   It's so weird.  I feel like I'm too depressed or tired to do anything.  But I definitely don't want to just sit around.

I asked the doctor about taking the blood test to find out what the gender is.  And because I won't be 35 by the time of delivery, insurance won't cover the test.  I'm due 10 DAYS BEFORE my 35th birthday!  How dumb is that?!  So I have to wait until the end of April to find out.  Eh, that is only a month and a half away.  I can handle that.  I've lasted 3 months without knowing.  Not that I was able to do anything about it.  Ha.

Ok- I am going to go try to motivate myself to ride the bike and get going here.